One of my good friend's mothers is sick, as in she has not been conscious since last Thursday and has congestive heart failure sick. I know it is not about me but I feel helpless. My friend has pretty much checked out of communications to deal with this and to be with her family; as she should be.

I want to do more; bake a casserole or something. But that seems like such a post funeral thing to do. Also she is very guarded about her emotions. I don't want to make (or expect her) to talk about everything.

See the thing is I have never lost anyone that super close to me. My grandfathers have both passed away but that is kind of like 1 level removed - you know what I mean. All of this hits me too hard about the "how will I cope when I am in this situation?" I know I will be a mess but what that means I am not sure.

Drat this post sounds so self focused at a time when it should not be about me at all. Sending all the prayers and vibes I can to my friend and her mom and family.  But I am not sure what I am praying for. It sounds like it will go one way but do I pray for that? THAT seems wrong somehow, even if she has been failing for sometime. I guess I will pray for the powers that be that everything happens as it is meant to (I am a big believer in that) and that her mom is in no pain in any situation and that my friend has the support and strength she needs to get through this difficult time.